"It"

I don’t understand how anyone could not believe in God.  I had a conversation today with a couple of my coworkers that broke my heart.  One stated that he was an atheist (and proud of it) and I immediately blurted out “I’m Sorry”.  And I am sorry.  I can’t imagine living a life where you have no hope.  A life where you would be alone.  A life where when you die, it is the end.  What an awesome feeling to know that I have hope in Jesus Christ.  That even though I don’t deserve it, God’s love is steadfast.  How comforting it is to know that when I feel outnumbered, or out of place or completely alone, Jesus is next to me with his arm around me.  And the best part of all is the promise of eternity with him. To know that when I leave this world that my Savior will be there to welcome me at the gates of Heaven with a big smile and say “Welcome home, Amanda, we have been waiting for you!” This gives me peace.

My other co-worker, whom I have grown close to in the last 2 and a half months, told me that she was on the fence about believing in God.  She had told me this same thing last week when in passing I brought up prayer and she told me that she didn’t believe in that sort of thing.  She proceeded to tell me today about being raised in a Christian home, attending church regularly and about going to a Christian college. She told me how she felt guilty because she doesn’t take her son to church and that she wants him to have the opportunity to learn about God.  At the end of her story, she looked at me and said “I just don’t feel it.  I want to but, I don’t…”  My heart broke for her in that moment.  The sadness in her eyes almost brought me to tears.  I thought about our conversation all afternoon as I worked.  I thought about it as I drove to pick up Daniel from daycare. I have thought about it all evening.  I know God has planted the seed within her. I can’t begin to speculate on why she can’t feel “it” but what I do know is that God desires her to feel “it” because that “it” is the Holy Spirit.

Lord, I know that I am an imperfect person. Please help me to convey your love and your kindness in everything I do each and every day.  Let others see your light shine through me.  May my words be your words. I pray for my sweet friend, Father, that you will touch her life and fill her soul to the point that it is overflowing and she will feel “it” and KNOW that it is you and know that it is your unconditional love. Thank you, Jesus, for dying for my sins so that I will have everlasting life with you in Heaven. In your precious name, Amen.